If you are aware of yourself and that you have engaged in something that has harmed you, then you are very much still connected to your physical organism. What you have probably done is damaged your etheric web.This leaves you vulnerable to influences from the Emotional Plane, where there are entities who would seek to draw energy from you. This may be why you are feeling so depleted in energy.

My advice to you is to refrain from ever engaging in such activities again and try and balance your chakras as best you can. I do an exercise every night with two quartz crystals. I hold a female crystal in my left hand and a male one in the right. With the crystal in the right hand, I rotate the crystal over all seven of my chakra centres. Starting at the crown, I rotate 20 times clockwise, alternating anti-clockwise, then clockwise again down my chakras. As I do this, I visualise my chakras coming into balance and I ask my devas to help me balance them. This keeps me in very good health. I have not had a cold since 2010 and although I travel extensively in planes all over the world, I am in Laos at the moment, I have not caught covid. I do not wear a mask either.

You are a monad and so there is no way you can disconnect from yourself. Black Magicians voluntarily severe the link to their causal envelope and that is why they need to seek energy from us, as they no longer have a connection with the Source of all energy, as they have chosen to follow the Left-Hand Path of involution, rather than evolution.

I hope you regain your composure soon.

All monadic streams passing through the 4th Kingdom of Nature, learn to self-identify. Remember, there are seven streams and humans and devas as just two of them. The devas focus on being masters of matter and humans focus on consciousness development. Once we enter the 5th Kingdom of Nature, we begin to specialise and some of us work with future consciousness development in humans, others go toward animals and some even work on plants. There are other paths to follow and these are discussed in other presentations, briefly.